Right now, I should be packing for TN. Right now, I should be sweeping and mopping my upper level floors, possibly the main level too. Right now, I should be making Kid Battle's lunch for tomorrow. Right now, I should be throwing miscellaneous items in to the washing machine, taking out the trash, and throwing some vinegar in my jetted tub to swirl around for a while. But right now, at 10:01PM, I am writing a blog because...I feel like it. To be perfectly honest, I may finish up here (or save this for later) and go take a nice, hot, comforting and relaxing bath before I go throw some vinegar in there. And I am perfectly okay with that.
We had a pretty darn good weekend, all things considered. Our kinda sorta sis-in-law moved all of her things on Saturday with the help of her step dad and his friend. They kicked some serious butt! There wasn't any drama, foul words, or disdain being thrown around, so that's a win! I even was told by her bestie and her step dad that they are sorry it came to this, but they know what it's like to live with her, and she will have to figure it out. Side note: Said bestie might be asking her to move out of her place already too. I have compassion for her situation and I hope her the best in life as I would like to see her and my nephew succeed. As a very dear friend of mine said, there is a season for everything. There was a season for her to stay with you, and now the season has changed and it is the season for her to move on. I agree with her.
Mr. Battle had a much better weekend as well. We spent some time at Build-A-Bear in the mall. He made a Toothless and an Olaf to attach to his backpack. Yes, he has over-sized backpack buddies. Whatever he needs to do to get through each day (preferably with a smile) is fine by me. I might even be a tad bit jealous...
Kid Battle made a Twilight Sparkle. It was a very good day.
Mr. Battle is back at the VA in the PTSD Unit. He is struggling again today with thoughts and beliefs that I would be better off without him. Happier, even. No matter the obstacles and struggles we have had together, I love the stuffing out of that man and I can't, nor do I want to, imagine my life or a world without him in it. Yes, things are hard a lot of the time. Yes, there are times where I would love to go to the bathroom by myself. Yes, certain tasks or goals are more difficult to do now, but that doesn't mean that his place in my home, my heart, or our family unit has shrunk or become less imperative because of the changes. He IS important and he plays a vital role in my life and in Kid Battle's life. Do I think that there is only ONE person out there for each of us? I honestly don't know. I mean, I believe that the ONE is the person who you chose and who chose you (with God's guidance) and every time you choose him/her rather than throwing in the towel it solidifies their role as THE ONE for you. I choose Mr. Battle. He chooses me. And I believe that GOD brought us together in the beginning for a reason.
One thing that I have learned in being a part of a church family is that everyone has struggles. Everyone feels pain. Everyone has a choice what to do in those situations, and it is not my place nor anyone else's place to judge. Blessed are the Cracked.
If you don't hear from me for a while, I am on VACATION! with two of my girls from when we were stationed at FT Wainwright in Fairbanks, AK. It has been 4 years since we have all gotten together so it should be fun! Also, fun fact! The friend we are traveling to--doesn't know that our friend who lives in WA is coming. SURPRISE!
Happy January, and Hello February!
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